I have to admit that by the end of my 8 hour binge watching marathon my own beliefs and what I know about this case were shaken if not stirred. The subtext unsettled me, the tirade of spokespeople on behalf of the parents got through, even that of the painfully naïve Hubbards. And yes, I asked myself, what if I'm wrong? If my former girl crush Sandra Felgueres can do an about turn, why can't I?
As my regular readers know, I have no problem with admitting when I am wrong. Being wrong is usually accompanied by better and further knowledge and I'm all about enlightenment. In this case, am I wrong or are other people trying to seduce me into sharing the same beliefs as them? The devil works in mysterious ways.
The beliefs of Summers, Swan and Jim Gamble have now gone mainstream, and by mainstream, I mean global. The book of Summers and Swan was completely discredited on Amazon and failed to have any impact on public opinion. That it's release coincided with a shameful publicity stunt by Team McCann and Sky News that resulted in the death of a so called internet troll, simply added to the belief that the book was part of an establishment cover up.
And for me this is where the chills began to run down the spine. Was I wrong? About the parents? nah, those points that took me beyond reasonable doubt are as glaring as they ever were. About Operation Grange and the likelihood of a cover up, OMG, is it possible the 'establishment' have no intention whatsoever of letting the Great British public know what happened to Madeleine McCann? That possibility now seems very real. I will probably now be inundated with 'told you so' posts As the turmoil within my head continues.
My faith in human nature was blown to smithereens by my realisation that Madeleine's parents may have been lying. Believe me, it does not feel good to have such heinous thoughts, ignorant bliss has a lot going for it, it tends to keep you step with your fellow human beings. For me that feeling of dissonance is a way of life, but this time, I was actually on a hit list, as indeed were many others who did not buy the abduction story. Why would an innocent family go to so much trouble to seek and destroy those online who do not believe them? It's things like that that make them appear guilty.
Today my faith is once again shaken to the core. Is it possible 30+ homicide officers have been working towards a diplomatic way out of this never ending conundrum? Is it their failure to find a way to exonerate the McCanns that takes this investigation into it 's 7th and 8th year? I'm having now to revisit all those 'wtf' moments that turned the McCanns from negligent parents into national treasures. The circus is back.